One fabulous Thinker

I remembered this while praying for God to change my circumstances. I was asking Him to move, to shift things, to fix what felt broken. And in the middle of my prayer, a memory surfaced of a time when a woman was sharing about the challenges she'd been having with her husband. She explained how she'd been praying, asking God to change him. She listed the things she wanted God to fix, correct, and adjust. And while she was talking, I didn't think she should be praying like that. I thought: Have I ever done that? Have I ever come to God with a list? Have I ever prayed out of frustration rather than surrender? Have I ever asked God to move someone else without first letting Him search me? The answer was yes. I've prayed loaded prayers before. Prayers full of emotion. Prayers shaped by disappointment. Prayers that sounded faithful but were actually driven by a need for control. I wasn't trying to be manipulative. I was trying to survive. And when I finally slowed ...